Essays --

Now I can say with confidence that I had never figured out when people suffer from the unacceptable termination of a person dear to them. For my part it used to be sympathy, solicitude. When this happened to me, when my gran died, I started to bring the anguish people felt when their loved ones kick in away. This unbearable pain which rips you apart, it feels like a heavy stone in your heart and makes you weep each time you recall a dead soul family member. Time is unlikely to soothe this pain, no matter what others say.Every dawning I wake up thinking that she is in the dining board drinking her coffee and watching her favorite TV shows. All of a sudden the truth starts rushing up and I come to realize that it was just a dream which was still hanging around me. In spite of my outward calmness, I felt as if there was a big hole inside me. My grandmothers death was rightfully a sobering event and the most traumatic loss in my life. The commemoration of my grandmother will alwa ys be with me wherever I go and always tinting my dreams with her gentle smell of rosemary and the shine silve...